This post is probably going to be a rambling of many things. I have written on here in a while but that just means A LOT of things have been happening in my life. In no particular order, let me just share...
So.... not to my surprise my employer laid me off this past spring! I am thankful that I had the foresight to see it coming. I think I was the only person who recognized the signs of "a reduction in force", knew that they were a candidate, and was elated to be paid to leave (plus transitional support). I could not get out of that office fast enough after signing the paperwork to guarantee my severance pay. I think they thought I was going to put up a fight. I might have actually been pop-locking out of the door! I was smart enough to have paid off all of my debts and have a little bit of a financial reserve. Thank goodness for my mother's relentless lectures of financial responsibility. I hated my job. I hated waking up early, just to lie in bed for another hour, trying to encourage myself to start the day. Here is my schedule:
Get up,
drive 40mins,
do nothing of importance,
be slightly discriminated against,
FACEBOOK,
drive 40mins,
arrive safely at home,
start my real life,
go to bed,
REPEAT.
I really hated my job. I never felt comfortable there. My boss was never an ally and his boss only did enough to cover her behind when things got "fuzzy". They didn't care whether you had any training, or whether you knew anything about the products they engineered, just as long as you came to work, didn't ask too many questions, and drove a project to completion by any mean necessary but without spending any money. Oh well... :-)
Oh quick shout out to all my Spring born babies (March, April, May, and I guess part of June?). If I ever referred to you as a friend or as family, know that I love you and wish you all the happiness. One of these birthday havers told me that they don't really celebrate their birthday. If fact, they said "It's no big deal. Everyone has a birthday." I responded under my breath with "But not everyone gets to celebrate it." Not everyone was fortunate enough to see their birthday this year. Not everyone makes it to 31 or 25 or 16... So know that I love and respect you all. My heart has so much happiness and sheer joy that even the non-believer can feel my love! I'm flooding each and everyone's birthday with hope, promise, and laughter... Happy Birthday Sister! Happy Birthday Wesley! Happy Birthday Bennie-Mae! Happy Birthday Lawrence! Happy Birthday Dashawn, Danica, and Idi (the trifecta) and Happy Birthday Mia! Happy Birthday to you all! Okay... I'll bring it down a notch.
Um... so this is a warning to all good intentioned people. Don't trust Craigslist. Specifically don't trust people for Valdosta Ga who post craigslist ads looking for friendship and housing but then decide to become overly aggressive and stop paying their rent. I intended to help this person get back on their feet, what I got was a maniac with a nicotine addiction. The road to hell is paved with good intentions. Get background checks on everybody. Children too!
So... back to be laid off really quick. So remember how I said I was laid off this past spring (I did say that, you weren't listening). Well, I prayed that I would find another opportunity that better fit my aspirations of becoming a better engineer but that also fit with my growing desire for a new lifestyle. It's funny how you consciously make decision for yourself and build this sturdy little life that you think will make you happy. You try living that life... that life you built for yourself with your fancy education and your beautiful new house. You try to find love and happiness within that life, but it's not working. You look around this comfortable little life you have, surrounded by all your family and friends, and it's just not what you want anymore. You love your family and friends, you love your little house, your love all the things you love, but this life isn't the life you need. You crave for something else. You crave the other sense of yourself that is a bit less practical and a lot more rewarding. So I prayed constantly for something else to capture me. To take me away from what I know and who I know. And again, not to my surprise, my CREATOR answered my prayer. Can't say that the worrier in my didn't panic and cry like a baby when I didn't see it unfolding in my life right away... but while I was praying, I was also planning and working on that plan. The Creator helps those who help themselves, right? So they laid me off and now, not only do I have a new position, but also an opportunity to go to graduate school for free! All I had to do was believe that everything would be fine, figure out what I could do to make the situation better, and then leave all the stress behind me. Go Figure!
I celebrated my one year loc-a-versary on May 14th by completing a Natural Hair Care Guidebook!!! Look for an upcoming blog.
Well, that's my story...
Be Well,
.: Mickel :.
"I worry, therefore I am!"
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